Musings Under a Spring Sun

Hello girls...gahhh has it really been five days since my last post? Really? I know I have neglected you all, I apologise...but it has been a truly stressful weekend, I can assure you.
I have been wrestling with alot of different emotions inside of me, guilt, shame, unworthiness, and last night they all sort just came bubbling out as I was talking to my dad.
It was kind of like the lancing of an old wound, and it was hard, but it felt good. I had just been dealing with stuff like feeling different from everyone else, having a tough time in school, and on top of it all, not doing as well as I would have like in Piano contest.
It's just been hard...and I had no idea really what to write on here"I'm emotionally overwhelmed?? Thus I am in my pajamas all day long and reading wayyyy too much Harry Potter?"
THAT wouldn't have been good. So I decided to save my post until I wasn't so stressed out..which is now :)
So, I took some pictures outside, spring has been coming in full force and everything is green and beautiful...just wanted to show you guys!! It's kind of a self portrait thing...

Lie upon the carpet of the world, green with a luster, borne of tears from the heavens...

Think thoughts that never dared to enter before, as you stare into the sunlight, the universe's core...

Laugh as the wind blows, Dance as the earth revolves, sing as the leaves tremble on their stalwart branches...

And whatever you do, don't take yourself too seriously, in the end what does it matter, if you conformed to wishes of the ever spinning culture, dreaming of tomorrow, today.

Sometimes you'll get confused, quite muddled and befuddled, Trust the Father who had a plan, before the world's drew it's first breath, and the sun first shot it's beams into a dark and void universe...

Know who you are, no matter what they say, you're a child of the King, flaws can be mended, for nothing is impossible with God...

Just never, oh never, oh never forget...how much He loves you....

This is my message to all you girls out there, no matter what you are struggling with, HE LOVES YOU...never let go of that, no matter what you are dealing with.

I promise I'll be posting more...just giving life some time to settle down.

I love you girls, so very very much :)

All my love and God's blessings,

Ari