Hey Ferb, I know what were gonna do today...

Yeah, yeah I know that show is a cartoon on Disney and I am WAAAYYY to old for that, but honestly? It's totally hilarious. And Fish Hooks? I just love Milo and Bea!! But enough about cartoons. *raises eyebrows mysteriously* What have I been doing today? Well, I went to Epcot with my family, got some noodles in China, and a Pina Colada slushie in Morrocco and did some Soarin :)
It's our last day going to the parks and honestly, i am quite relieved. I hate feeling exposed like that every day, with thousands of people looking at me and judging. I'm more of a homebody myself, where I can wear sweats and have no makeup on and do whatevs. Ya know?
Argh. I wanted today to be a happy post...but honestly, I am really not feelin too awesome. I wish I had some pictures I could post...instead I think I'm gonna post music videos of some of my favorite songs :)
I mean, two depressing posts in a row would be *so lame* :P So I'm gonna shaaaare some song wid you guys..hope you enjoy...and that  you like christian rap, cause that's basically most of it!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x2bxvLm-Xvg&feature=player_embedded

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=MllhC0qyEjY



Sorry, I'm figurin out this whole copying youtube videos thang :P





I hope this works! and that you guys enjoy :)
love, Ari

Heartbreak Remembrances

Hey girls...this little blogger, instead of having a blast at Hollywood studios, is sitting here at home with an upset stomach :( Oh well, that gives me more time to sit here at the condo and write!
So. My topic for today is not a very happy one, but it's pretty much all I can think about, and then when I do, I am shocked at myself.
You see, for years I have been the poster girl for "the girl who doesn't need guys". And I really meant it too.
I had had too many heartbreaks and had decided--enough. I'm not doing this anymore, guys just aren't worth it. So I was single for like forever.
But now...i kinda broke the cardinal rule of being a single independent girl....yeahhh I kinda fell in love.
Well, maybe not in LOVE, but like really liking a guy.
And now I'm scared that I'm going to lose him. I never really understood the feeling before, I always thought, "How could those girls be in such a train wreck over a guy? They need to move on!".
But now that that feeling is happening to ME, when I really care about a guy, I understand how awful it is. I don't even know for sure, but its still driving me crazy.
Now I finally understand what it feels like, and it doesn't feel good at all. I almost feel guilty, like I'm not supposed let a guy mean this much to me.
It's all jumbled up inside. I like him so much, and it would hurt SO bad to lose him, but in the end, I know it doesn't matter. God is what truly matters and in the big picture, it doesn't matter if I lose a guy.
But that doesn't stop it from stinging now. It's so weird, I mean I'm sixteen, but I feel totally new to this guy\dating\heartbreak stuff. Before I couldn't care less about guys, I was a regular tomboy.
Guys were my friends, and that was it. Guys liked me, but I didn't really care. It was fun, but I never met a guy that captured my interest. .
Now I have. And I want him to be my boyfriend. That's where the fear comes in. What if he doesn't like me that way? What if he never asks me out? What if this is all in my head?
Yeah. So this inexperienced girlie is gonna have to figure it out I guess...how have you girls handled guy problems? I'd like to hear stories, or advice, considering i know like zip.
I know, a weird blog post, but I can't really focus on anything else.
Geez, being a girl is super tough. What with our issues with our self esteem, PMS, and confusing guys to boot, its a pretty crazy and tough world out there...but I know we'll get through it.
I've got God, my family, and amazing friends that will help me get through any trial, so I've gotta stay hopeful, and trust God no matter what.
On the bright side, down here in Orlando, there's this super huge target and it has an outrageous amount of awesome stuff, and and i have $90 dollars of spending money!! New shoes are calling my name!
So sorry for this slightly weird and depressing post, but a blogger needs to be honest with her readers. She can't just put on a happy face when things aren't going great, that would be like lying to her readers, which I refuse to do.
So, I'm having a bit of a bad day today, but I'll get over it, and in the meantime, you guys have an awesome Thursday!
Love,
Ari

Sister to Sister :)

Hey girls! I am in Orlando and chillen here on the couch of our condo, writin on my Daddy's laptop. Today was pretty crazy! We went to Magic Kingdom and Epcot and had alot of fun, riding the rides and seeing the sights. I've been trying really hard to get over my self consciousness, at least over my skin, and today, it worked pretty okay. I mean, I definitely felt different, but it didnt totally get me down because I felt pretty in other ways. My hair looked good and I liked the outfit I was wearing, so that helped some, besides, I just figured that I am never going to see any of these people ever again, so why do I care how they see me? The people, my family, friends, and this one awesome guy, all love me for me...so why should I care if I have a zit or two? Nobody's perfect. Life isnt Disney Channel. Not all girls have an unlimited wardrobe with perfect hair, perfect skin, fame, and a cute boy to boot.
I have a great, loving, encouraging family, a God who loves me and friends who would take a bullet for me and I for them...what else do I need? I dont need the approval of the world anyway.
So that's my daily pick me up--for you guys AND me. I know not girls struggle with skin issues like me, but all girls have SOMEthing they dontg like about themselves, and I am here to tell you that in the end it DOESNT matter. I know that deep inside, but sometimes its SO hard to bring it out, to really live it.
I'll freely admit I have had meltdowns about my looks, I've freaked out about my skin, I've moaned overf my flaws. But that doesnt mean that after I'm done freaking out, I can't pick myself up, and with God's help, try again to make it through. And so can you.
What are some of your insecurites? We girls are all together on this and we should be praying for each other about our fears and insecurties. If you dont want to leave it in a comment, message me!
We are sisters in Christ, and we should pour out our hearts to each other, and then pray our hearts out for each other, because that is how God's body WORKS. You know some of mine now...I would love to know some of yours, so I as your sister can pray for you ;)
Well, that's my little note for today :)
No pictures...those'll come after the trip.
Love you girls! Keep reading, commenting, and living for Christ!
Love,
Ari

Aren't vacations exccciiiting?

Hey girls!
Tomorrow my family and I are heading down to Orlando to have an awesome time at Disney World together. So, while that means awesome times, roller coasters, staying at a condo, shopping and all that jazz, it also means I can't really post for a week. But don't worry, I will take tons of pictures and the posts afterwards will be be worth the wait!
So were driving down tomorrow, that means nine hours of trying to entertain myself in a car with two siblings, but fortunately, my parents are gonna let me drive on the highway, so I am a little bit closer to getting my licence! Sooo exciting.
Oh and another note...I believe a sweet little blogger named Chloe Jane I'm pretty sure, commented on one of my last posts, and you were so sweet, I'm sorry I couldn't comment back! Blogger was being really weird and wouldn't let me, in no way did I not appreciate your comment :) in fact I LOVE comments so comment away my friends and tell me what you think of my posts and pictures!
So that's my little note for today...sorry there are no pictures I have been crazy busy today what win church and packing and having people over for lunch, it's been crazy busssyyy :)
So don't miss me too much girlies, I promise I'll be back!
All my love, and God's blessings, Ari <3

Blue Wishes

Hey girls!
How are you guys this lovely Saturday morning? I can't say I'm feeling too peachy, but I hope you guys are feeling awesome :) I wanted to show you guys some pictures from my last babysitting job...I was literally snapping pictures the whole time, the poor baby had no idea what was going on!
He was so cute though, and was literally addicted to his bottle. He was sucking on that thing the whole time..it was like his security bottle.
I had just gotten off work and was tired, but he was a good boy, and hey every little bit of cash helps!

My sister was my assistant babysitter :)

He loved that bottle..and sorry about the slightly blurry hands, that boy was constantly moving!

    He was so cute!!

Like I said. He's a milk-aholic!!

But at the same time, of course, an adorable and rather sleepy baby :)

I love comparing pictures from my old camera to my new one now...the quality is so much better!

As far as life goes, there's not much news to report. i have a few bits of good news, I have a steady job now and am gonna work to buy a car :) Also, I had a physics test on Friday that I was worried about, but I aced it, so that made me super happy :)

And nooww I have another poem to share with you guys. I don't post them often, but I really like this one :)

Hang On

It’s a familiar feeling,
The roller coaster is up to the top,
The second before it drops,
Everything inside my poised to fall with it,
Hair flying forward,
Voice ready to scream,
The gleam of the metal,
Holding me up,
Supporting,
Yet twisting turning,
Upside down,
Everywhere,
No control,
No time to do anything but
Hang on.


I see the rail,
But it doesn’t register,
Until the twist finally happens,
Velocity incomprehensible,
Can’t control myself,
It’s a primal world,
Where the fight to survive,
Still so wholly exists,
Can’t put my hands in the air,
No thoughts,
But to hang on.


You are like my roller coaster,
Turning my insides out,
Can’t let the feelings out,
Their too busy,
Fighting zero gravity,
Wish I could relax,
Enough to let you catch me,
But the fear is ever there,
Makes my clutch that safety bar,
The ever dependence upon indepence,
The first thought in my mind
To hang on.


It’s a delightful fear,
But fear it still is,
Tying my stomach in knots,
I can laugh it off,
And ignore it’s there,
But if I ever see your face,
I’ll be on top of that roller coaster again,
Waiting,


For the moment when it all drops,
For good or bad,
It can’t be stopped,
A force beyond my own self,
Dignity can’t be salvaged,
When you are falling in different directions,
On a ride you can’t stop or slow down,
Nothing to do,
Just hang on.


Time passes like,
A shooting gun,
Once fired it can’t be undone,
Once you buckle in there’s no turning back,
As the coaster rides on up,
Clicking and clanking,
To increase the feeling,
Curdling in your stomach,
Is there joy at the end or sorrow,
Will I regret this move tomorrow?
Can’t predict where the gun will fire,
Can’t see the end of the race,
Before it’s begun…
All those people and I see only one,
Haloed in the setting sun,
Don’t know which direction to run,
Can only hang on.
What if in the middle,
Of the wild and insane confusion,
You grab my hand and become an anchor,
The whole world could turn over,
But I would have you,
Only a possibility,
But one that makes me,
Linger before the ride,
Unable to walk away,
Wishing I could have both,
The safety of the ground and the safety of you,
So terrifying,
Where will this go,
Are you forbidden,
Nobody knows,
A roller coaster no one can see,
A mystery hiding in dark melee,
Will curiosity get the best of me,
What one earth is meant for me,
God, show me which way I should flee,
In or out,
With you or away,
Can’t bear to stay,
Or leave,
Just desperately
Hang on.

I hope you guys like it!! Well, that's all for today...Have a wonderful weekend!
Love,
Ari

Drops Fallin..

Okay, first of all..I'm so sorry the video didnt work!! *sadface*
I am also very sorry for not posting in a horrible amount of time! But school started and work and life in general...and there has been a dearth of spare time. My apologies lovely readers! I hope these pictures make up for my absence :)

In case there is ANY doubt...I am completely and totally in love with my camera.

A drop of the eternal atmosphere...falling from the heavens,

Reflecting the world around them, in a gleam of refracted light.

A tiny world within itself, a globe teetering dangerously,

A thoughtful tear, fallen from the face of the sky, filled with the liquid burdens of the heavens,

Happy tears, or sad ones, who am I to say? The sky moves on, the clouds will clear, the roaring chasm will be filled.

Hanging on by one last tendril, a stuggle to survive, a primal urge to hold, to avoid being extinguished, seperated on the cold ground.

So do you guys like em? I had SO much fun taking them!! i went outside in my talls socks and crocs and took tons of pictures after the rain had stopped..I felt so photographer-ish :)

So since the video didn't work, I might as well give you the whole spiel verbally..I'm so sorry it didnt work..it just wouldnt upload, maybe it was too long?

Anyways.

I have a had a long relationship with acne..haha an abusive one, i like to say :P

But, but the last eight months it's been especially rough. What I was using for the greater part of that time was the AcneFree System

Which worked okay...but not awesome. I still got zits, and it made my skin really dry,

so i used Cetaphil moisturizer

 I'm sorry the picture is so small! Anyway and that helped some, but I wasn't totally satisfied.

At night I used Epuido, a cream given to me by my dermotologist

I use it only at night, as directed :)

Since I wasn't totally happy with my routine, I decided to switch. I had heard alot of good things about the Mary Kay acne system, so I decided to give it a try :)

I'm using right now--

Mary Kay Velocity for a face wash and cleanser. They are very light and great smelling, the moisturizer can be almost too light, I supplement with the Cetaphil :)

For my acne I use the Mary Kay Acne gel

Sorry again that it's so small! and then at night I still use the Epuido :)

So that's what I'm using right now, and so far it's been working pretty well..its only been four days, i can't wait to see where I am in a month!

Well I'm all typed out now...so I hope ya like it :)

Love,

Ari

Newness and Video!!!

HEYYY! and I am super happy tonight because I have a new "feature" that is going to be added to my blog :) A video tutorial about skin care and what I am using and stuff :) I've been watching so many on youtube I thought it would be fun to make my own! Enjoy!!

I hope it worked!! I will be making more as I try new things to keep you guys posted on what works! I know that skin care and acne issues is a huge deal to alot of girls, so I decided to show u guys what I'm using and how its progressing in hopesof maybe helping you guys :)

love u girls!!

Ari