Saturday, January 8, 2011

Blue Wishes

Hey girls!
How are you guys this lovely Saturday morning? I can't say I'm feeling too peachy, but I hope you guys are feeling awesome :) I wanted to show you guys some pictures from my last babysitting job...I was literally snapping pictures the whole time, the poor baby had no idea what was going on!
He was so cute though, and was literally addicted to his bottle. He was sucking on that thing the whole was like his security bottle.
I had just gotten off work and was tired, but he was a good boy, and hey every little bit of cash helps!

My sister was my assistant babysitter :)

He loved that bottle..and sorry about the slightly blurry hands, that boy was constantly moving!

    He was so cute!!

Like I said. He's a milk-aholic!!

But at the same time, of course, an adorable and rather sleepy baby :)
I love comparing pictures from my old camera to my new one now...the quality is so much better!
As far as life goes, there's not much news to report. i have a few bits of good news, I have a steady job now and am gonna work to buy a car :) Also, I had a physics test on Friday that I was worried about, but I aced it, so that made me super happy :)
And nooww I have another poem to share with you guys. I don't post them often, but I really like this one :)

Hang On

It’s a familiar feeling,
The roller coaster is up to the top,
The second before it drops,
Everything inside my poised to fall with it,
Hair flying forward,
Voice ready to scream,
The gleam of the metal,
Holding me up,
Yet twisting turning,
Upside down,
No control,
No time to do anything but
Hang on.

I see the rail,
But it doesn’t register,
Until the twist finally happens,
Velocity incomprehensible,
Can’t control myself,
It’s a primal world,
Where the fight to survive,
Still so wholly exists,
Can’t put my hands in the air,
No thoughts,
But to hang on.

You are like my roller coaster,
Turning my insides out,
Can’t let the feelings out,
Their too busy,
Fighting zero gravity,
Wish I could relax,
Enough to let you catch me,
But the fear is ever there,
Makes my clutch that safety bar,
The ever dependence upon indepence,
The first thought in my mind
To hang on.

It’s a delightful fear,
But fear it still is,
Tying my stomach in knots,
I can laugh it off,
And ignore it’s there,
But if I ever see your face,
I’ll be on top of that roller coaster again,

For the moment when it all drops,
For good or bad,
It can’t be stopped,
A force beyond my own self,
Dignity can’t be salvaged,
When you are falling in different directions,
On a ride you can’t stop or slow down,
Nothing to do,
Just hang on.

Time passes like,
A shooting gun,
Once fired it can’t be undone,
Once you buckle in there’s no turning back,
As the coaster rides on up,
Clicking and clanking,
To increase the feeling,
Curdling in your stomach,
Is there joy at the end or sorrow,
Will I regret this move tomorrow?
Can’t predict where the gun will fire,
Can’t see the end of the race,
Before it’s begun…
All those people and I see only one,
Haloed in the setting sun,
Don’t know which direction to run,
Can only hang on.
What if in the middle,
Of the wild and insane confusion,
You grab my hand and become an anchor,
The whole world could turn over,
But I would have you,
Only a possibility,
But one that makes me,
Linger before the ride,
Unable to walk away,
Wishing I could have both,
The safety of the ground and the safety of you,
So terrifying,
Where will this go,
Are you forbidden,
Nobody knows,
A roller coaster no one can see,
A mystery hiding in dark melee,
Will curiosity get the best of me,
What one earth is meant for me,
God, show me which way I should flee,
In or out,
With you or away,
Can’t bear to stay,
Or leave,
Just desperately
Hang on.

I hope you guys like it!! Well, that's all for today...Have a wonderful weekend!

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